I miss loneliness. Badly. I am always surrounded by people nowadays. All of them are friends. Well wishers. People who genuinely care about my well-being. Or so I hope.
But, I miss being by myself. Doing nothing. Staring into the open space. A mind without thoughts. Dreaming a hundred impossible dreams. In Absolute Silence!!!
If it is not people, it is books. Or the damn lappie. I am always ‘occupied’. Even when I am free, I am playing games, watching movies or kiruk-ing away on the lappie. Rarely over the last one year have I just sat down doing nothing.
There was a time, not so long ago, when I had all the solitude I wanted. Time to think. Time to dream. Time to do nothing. That was bliss. Some call it boredom though.
Have you ever wondered how it would it be to have a home without any means of entertainment?
No TV, No Computers, No Radio/Music System, No Games, No Books, Not even Newspapers/Magazines. No Telephones/Mobiles.
You go out, do your work, slog the whole day and come back to an empty house. A house, not a home. In fact, not even a house, just a 10 ft x 10 ft room and the hard, bare floor. No sound. No light. Silence. Pin Drop Silence.
No person to chatter away. No music or other sounds. Not even light. Just you. And the universe.
How long can you such a life? Would you like such a life? What would you do?
I tell you, it is absolute freedom. Your life led as you want it.
No stupid television shows or cricket matches to govern your schedules. No depressing news early in the morning to spoil your mood. You don’t have to listen to anybody’s worries. You don’t have anybody to tell your worries to.
Bliss. Freedom. How I miss those days :(
PS: And to think that hot shot corporates spend thousands to 'retreat' to far off places for some solitude